Heart Broken

Heart Broken...For the first time in my life I have broken sm1's heart so badly and have had mine broken even more badly...I feel depressed...i am already having those symptoms....dont feel like doing a thing even...

love @maths

Some one has written:

Math tells us of the 3 saddest love stories:
Of parallel lines, who were never meant to meet.
Of tangent lines, who were together once but then parted forever.
And of asymptotes, who could only get closer and closer, but could never be together...

concentric circles!!!
its just diameter which crosses the center - happy ending :-)

and there are the lines in different planes which will always have a same shortest distance maintained for life....what we call the friend's zone :)

Another one <>
Expected versus Actual Value of Love verus Time

Expected Value function y = logx where y = love & x = time

Actual value function is lognormal function with asymptotic curve leading to '0'. "

heartbreakers

I am a terribly distracted guy...I dont know why....but its in the structure of my genes...
anyways..was talking to a friend..and were generally talking about how airport terminals have separate terminals for arrivals and departures...atleast in whichever ones we have been too..
The theory is that the 30,000 heartbreakers that arrive in the city dont see the 30,000 heartbreakers leaving this city.......Me I guess still want to hang in here..

Another conversation with a friend...
Friend:: Do you ever feel you've become the worst version of yourself? That a Pandora's box of all the secret, hateful parts - your arrogance, your spite, your condescension - has sprung open? Someone upsets you and instead of smiling and walking away, you zing them? "Hello, it's Mr Nasty." I'm sure you have no idea what I'm talking about..
Me:: No, I know exactly what you mean, and I'm completely jealous. What happens to me when I'm provoked is that I get tongue-tied and my mind goes blank. Then I spend all night tossing and turning trying to figure out what I should have said. What should I have said, for example, to a person who recently belittled my existence?
Friend:: But then, on the other hand, I must warn you that when you finally have the pleasure of saying the thing you mean to say at the moment you mean to say it, remorse inevitably follows.

war time

I have always had a fascination with wars..World War I and WW II ...when people said that there will be world war III in 1999 (as predicted by Nostradamus), i was very happy.We will be able to watch the war live on TV..
i have been reading a lot of quotes on wars of late...the best that I have liked are...."there shall be peace even we have to fight for it"..I found an interesting blog...diary of a white indian housewife....the girl is a damsel i have to agree...on all counts..gives a very new perspective as the name suggest....this is turning into a nightmarish blogging..random thoughts .....well today i am supporting germany ....my favorite country besides Spain..and Argentina(only because of Messi and the lovely girls that originate in the south-american country...)
whateve...

saw the sweetest thing today.....

Well i have been talking a lot about what i have been dreaming off late..i initially meant to write one again here..but have kind of forgotten it right now..this one was bad one though..and it completed..

sweetest thing is the movie..i will just log off..now..
listening to Noise by tokio hotel ...and memories by david guetta these days

Keep Dreaming...

well i just had an awesome dream ..basically nightmare..i thought i should write it down before I forget..
well me and my friends are stuck in some kind of cave/dark cell..we are all mighty scared..there is an opening and but such scary noises are coming over there that we cannot even dare to go that side...then 2 of us i.e. me and ashish finally decide to act a little courageous and try to find a way out...We do not know if this will be foolishness or bravery..then when we reach there..we see there is a bar which is blocking the way and loud noise is coming from the tip which is tied down....we imagine that it will be dangerous to cross it...since maybe there is some kind of force field which will blow us apart if we try to cross..and beyond the bar we can see an open jungle/green area kinds..
and a jeep waiting just outside the cave..then out of a rush of blood...I jump the bar ..and wow..nothing happens...i run to the jeep and ask ashish also to come over...we will be free..woow...
he jumps ..i start the jeep with a big whirl...and off we go...but then suddenly both of realize that something is seriously wrong....we donot see anyone outside..IS THIS A TRAP?? then as we go on the road ahead..we see zombies..and mummies..and scary creatures..we try to dodge them...then there is a whole army of those..scary..ugly...horrifying...
and my dreams just ends there..
well i am looking forward to the movie...Prince of Persia..reminds of childhood days when we used to play that game...

broodish

well i have not been broodish in more than a year now..i think its about time that i give in..i am closing in on a 25th birthday and i know what a quarter life crisis means in full blow.. its also been delayed by the fact that my song collection has very few sad /slow songs..but I am almost on my limits now..i just google and came to know that there is no word like broodish...brood is there and brooding is there...but you get my mood right..
god save my soul...I need some serious motivation right now...
i will go to sleep now..

Bas itna sa khwab hai

ok...first the title..its taken frm a PYT's status on gtalk..and why bas itna sa khwaab...I will explain that later
now the blog...I have been having kind of weird dreams of late..in the latest one my family that includes my mom ,sister and me are taken by FBI on a secret mission ..kinda of super cool..right...weird in the sense that why they did not take my dad..I can think of some conspiracy theory on that..If any one of you has seen Alias on Axn (I have always had a thing for Sydney Bristow aka Jennifer Garner...man she is so smart and hot..)then they would know that maybe my dad is working for FBI or better still double crossing them by working with the Neo-KGB aka Russian network...now why the dream/khwaab is bas itna sa..because I donot remember what happens after that..I am looking for answers ..because the Truth is Out there..:P(just trying to be cheeky here.)

I ,Me,Myself

This is again going to be jst a meaningless juxtaposition of random thoughts..I have yet to decide what the title should be ..But we should be able to work it out by the end of it..
I was just wondering how animals and humans are different..Animals just need one set of voice/vocal noise to say what they want..Dogs just bark .......Similarly Cats need a meow..and its superior in the Cat family(Lion/Tiger) just need to roar..and it all the permutations are able to convey a vast majority of meaning.( hunt that cat in a pack,Let's all fly south now!" or "Tiger on the prowl! Form an orderly stampede!)
on the other end of it..humans use a vast, seemingly infinite array of utterances to convey just one meaning: "Me! Me! Look at me! I am important! My opinions matter!
whatever..I have got the title now..which I have put it there..ciao

Information OVERLOAD

Well..the question is how much can we keep in our head..
To put it another way..I am saying that I have a very good memory ...Well I was aware of this condition a few years back when I was studying but I had been able to keep it down until about the start of this year...you know how people say that I can forgive but cant forget..It is literally true in my case..I seem to remember even the minutest of things..and not only of a little time back..but from my very existence..and I seem to be getting a little hopeless in this regard..and desperate too..Its not only when I meet people but also in my dreams..Its beginning to haunt me now..Sometimes it looks like I don't have a life probably or don't have many things happening for me so I seem to remember tidbits things too..I think there should be some medical condition for this ..I am sick I think..I already had a hyperactive/restlessness syndrome..then I seem to be happy for mostly no reasons(Serotonin hormone is one explanation)..and now this memory condition too..
Now I want to say that I don't remember the song I have been listening too..but I can't help
I am listening to to a lot of trance and a Plushgun-Just Impolite

wonder years

while I have started writing this blog..I still havnt thought of the title..we will work tht out by the end of this mayb...
so lets talk about wat has been up in eevery1's lives ..lets start wid me..
well have been partying a lot certainly..and havnt been better wid tht aspect..
luking fwd to a bit of adventure trip in the next 2 months..mayb hiking/trekking rock climbing..
had sm frens over frm bombay a couple of weeks back..
and yea..managed to pull up a reunion sort of a thing ..4 school frens..and one of our favorite class teacher..i dint think it before tht ..bt we all met after abt 10 years..and i mst say nobody had changed much..except fr 1 person (and only i believed tht ..the rest four disagreed on this bit)
it ws such a welcome thing..meeting frm a time wen we were all teens to now quite an adult..into careers..trying to make smthing of ourselves..sm of turned into drinkers too..vich i never thought wud happen in the first place ..our teacher she remembered so many things frm those years..her memory ws razor sharp..and her voice ws like a young girl....and the discussions of all amongst the class who got married ..to whom..how it happened..how they are doing..wat not...it ws a moment to be..and ya ..we got our teacher a wine bottle..as a gift..bt it turned out none amngst her family actually drank....
this reunion ws worth quite a bit..then we managed to pull each other's legs..like the school years..about girlfriends and random stuff..sm girl u thought ws cute and all..hahah..it ws fun..
now i knw wat the title shud be .."reunion" or "wonder years".i think wonder years luks gud.
can also see the connection wid the serial ..
with ttht i wud also put on suggestion the vitamin c graduation song..

vous rencontrer à nouveau

I meet you over and over again.Just when I start to think I am getting over you,we meet again..and though u pretend to be different you still are the same...so when do we stop meeting/talking to actually resolve this thing..i cant turn off my feelings like a switch..will alwayz be ur admirer no matter what..what should i do to probably escape this thing..this thing I end up doing for you...with you ..Next time i meet you probably in the next life..lets make this very clear frm thee outset ..you knw jst cut to the chase...there is no need to be formal..we have met now.so we donnt hav to strt all over again..jst take it from here..and keep it really clear fr me.so that i dont waste myself pondering and probably writing again in my next life..lets decide from the very outset what we will do if the course of events end up being the same..and lets just soften the blows..or we can jst decide it before hand that we wont waste so much of our emotional energy on being just Friends..or as you say best friends..but i still think it will alwayz be the same..you will alwayz be this charming...and I will alwayz be an easy prey for you..
for those of you who dont knw what the title means:"Meeting you again"

Black and white

well i have not as yet decided the topic of this blog..well smthing came up to my mind a few dayz back...I dont knw if i have mentioned it before or not bt I am a Gemini..So a typical two-face with mood swings ..mood swings is smthing i have been able to restrict for quite smtime..bt two-facedness has become a self-fulfilling prohecy to me..I act as I deem fit and as I wish..a friend pointed out to me being too philosophical..Bt i luv philosophy ..the way it jst makes things remain grey and the fact tht u cant really tell the answer to everything...Though I alwayz want clarity and things to be black and white...The best thing about my job is tht the performance is all white and black..there is nothing right and nothing wrong..u can see watever u do in front of you...
i think i will jst put the title as black and white..

quote unquote

a funny quote i found on internet..depicts a life of a trader
Money doesn't always bring happiness. People with ten million dollars are no happier than people with nine million dollars.

hey ya!!

i want to write smthing .bt my i hav been busy ..friends visiting and all tht stuff
well i saw Lotus temple after a long long time(3-4 years) even though i hav been in delhi fr the past 9 years now....did u knw it had 9 large water pools...and I havnt seen a place like tht in delhi...there is only one i used to consider close and tht ws Indian mountaineering foundation's venue for rock climbing near Venki...if i had all the money in the world i wud buy tht place..and now i hav one more addition and tht wud be the lotus temple..(ofcourse i cant buy it...)..both the place hav tht calm and sereneness u wud want ..plus the view one has with the terrace garden like garden in both the place jst make it the extra special...
and they are in the best locales of delhi(south delhi)..

long time no see

well ..well i think i am back to bloggin now...
shud be writing in more regularly...
its beeen too many late nights and hard work :P all along

and i miss her...

Me: u knw i really miss her
girl :who
me: she used to live in the flat below ours in our society...and we cud sit with her fr hours
girl : so what happened .
me : nothing she left the society..and i still remember her no.
girl : so u shud talk to her/call her up ..rite?
me : ya i wud...bt i dont knw..she left without even telling ..i ws away on a winter holiday ..
girl :bt still...mayb smthing cud happen...
me : ya (in laughs)..bt its a maruti car yaar her no ws chk369 and my dad sold it off we i ws away...it ws our first car ..
girl :(with a shut up kinda feeling) u r an ass(et)