Final Dayzzzz

Well the college has strted again..and I am happy that it finally did..Finally the final year..after the pseudo-final one (For dualites like me this is a nuisance ).Its nice to go to college once in a while..though u dont see many old faces since most who came along with me have left us.But I will get to see some one last time for sure this weekend at the convocation.

Its a lonely place these days since there are very few left amongst my species.And as usual the friends or the old good friends which seems a better word to describe them are the ones to spend the time with.what with all the ego tussles and misunderstandings here and there ..and losing sight of the others who cared either since u got really busy or the sense of direction just changed..or things just change..and nothing concrete is left to talk..And the emptiness in the hostel jst sinks in..As sm1 aptly put it for me "Its like being alone in a crowded room".Everyone talks about smthing bt u cant really relate to it.or any of it really..people smoking/drinking and socializing on the basis of it only.Bt its an adult choice besides it looked cool to me wen i was a child ..so i really cant blame them for picking it up..its just the style associated with it..

But change isnt necessarily bad..it can be good also.we jst resist it for the sake of our comfort and do not think of the endless possibilties it brings along with it.

Waise there is some hope wen u see those bright young freshers coming in..and seeing how their mothers really care for them("hai mera baccha ..kaise rahega yaha ..khana waana theek hai ki nahi..meri aakho ka tara..hostel to dekho kitna ganda hai..room saaf karte hai ..ya khud karne hote hai" and blah blah balh)..and its very awkward wen sm parents jst barge into the rooms withouth even knockin..its even more embarassing if its their mother..in a boyz hostel..give us a break..

5th year does bring its headaches though..bt we have so much time to handle them..that we long fr such headaches..The biggest of them all is we hav to learn how to kill time really..i hope i can meet this guy "Time" like in alice in wonderland the fat queen ordered to kill time..:))..or if it looked like the bodyless guru with only the borders there as in "Samay" of mahabharta..i will hav tough time to kill it..since my knife would go through him.. So i will be killing time in trying to kill time..Huh..

What with just 1 hr of monotonous drousy class everyday.But this mite be the first time that I will be actually awake through my classes for a change since all are late inthe afternoon..With many evictions and classroom embarrassments to my pathetic classroom record..This will be the golden period..

Another lost habit is checkin orkut conversations of other ppl..bt fr past sm time i hav been tryin to put up a show that i hav smthing in my life and i don reallly need orkut and stuff ..and i hav wrtiten also that orkut is a loser activity..so if i do it i will be contradicitng myself...well i hav done reasonably well in reducing my orkut usage and cheking conversations stuff to almost null..bt i still havnt got the hang of wat to do really in the now expanded vella time of mine..

So wat can one really do..prepare for cat..it is tough to study..and now in 5th year ..will be tough to talk me into it..bt as the peer pressure goes.mortals like me give in and screw money in all the coaching classes..

Hope as we know comes in various forms ..just wen u think that there are no girls here in the college(99% of girls are beautiful ..rest are in my coll)..u get the hang of all the babes that land up for the fashion courses(nift) at coaching..and also some for mba..and the only reason u can give for screwing ur mocks is tht ur attention gets diverted by seeing a new wave of girls at the test centres.only the last tiime there was one who ws amazingly cute..jst like "the wonder years" girl..Winnie Cooper..same face..same innocence..same eyes ..and just the same smile..the world stops as she speaks..like flowers flowing out of her mouth..and her hair flowing but a little out of place..and i made the (good) mistake if sitting on the same desk as hers..any guesses if i would like to screw another paper:)

Well this weekend there is a break from the mocks.so wil be seeing her next weekend only.

Besides ther are more things to do:: the final year project ...well well well ther is also our college fest to look forward to .hopefully this being my last time would be a gud one..and the only time wen chicks frm all of india come here to give a heart-flu.