Wednesday, September 23, 2009

tagged

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

First of all I know she won't but hypothetically speaking, I guess I would forgive her and assume that there was something missing in my love that made her go search for it somewhere else.

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?

I had always dreamed and prayed to God of settling abroad with someone I really love, be famous and powerful and be happy with my life. I dont knw if still want to settle abroad...bt rest, I want yes all the time..

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?

Nobody's. I am not a violent person at all and I don't keep grudges against anyone no matter what they have done to me. Forgive and you will be forgiven says my God and I believe in it strongly.I used to keep grudges..bt i stopped doing tht long time back..i say watever i want to there and then nowadayz...

Matthew 6:14-15 - "If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you refuse to forgive others, your Father will not forgive your sins."

4. Why do you blog?

Well, I started the blog for a reason but now I blog for a completely different reason. The original reason is irrelevant now. But now, I blog because I love to share what I feel and experience with other people. And I love it when others can relate or not relate to it.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

Hmm. No. She thought she loved me and somehow convinced me that we were meant to be. But when we kissed for the first time it was yuck. I knew and she knew that it wasn't love. hehe. We are again best friends now and she is happily committed to someone else and so am I. :)

6. Which is more blessed : loving someone or being loved by someone?

I believe loving someone is more blessed because it is harder to give than to take.

1 John 4:16 - "...God is love. Whoever lives in love, lives in God and God in him."

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?

I thought I would have to wait forever to find her but I am glad I didn't have to. 's hard but the scripture that keeps me strong is in 1 Corinthians 13.

1 Corinthians 13 - "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

8. If the person you secretly like is attached, what would you do?

I had thought about it a lot before actually meeting her and it scared me a lot. I knew I wouldn't be able to dissolve my feelings easily. But thank God, she was single too when we met. If I would have been just one more day late or early, things could have been quite different now. But God's timing is perfect. Both of us are glad we trusted in Him and did not take decisions ourselves.

Proverbs 3:5 - "Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and do not depend on your own understanding."

9. If you could root for one special cause, what would it be?

It's something different. "Salvation for all." because I think this is all that matters in life. To know how to contribute, see John 3:16.

John 3:16 - "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life."

10. What takes you down the fastest?

I once rode this roller coaster that had a 1000 feet drop in .42 seconds. I think that was what took me down the fastest.

Okay, seriously I don't like people who 'use' God. I have seen many people come to us for prayer for different reasons and when they get it, they never come back. Seek God for what He is, not for what He can give and when you do, He will give you what you want anyway but it will be so much better.

Matthew 6:33 - "But seek first God's kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

11. What resurrects you the fastest?

Whenever she comes online on msn. I might even be dead but hearing that *ding* sound will actually resurrect me! :D

12. What's your fear?

I used to keep having different fears. There was a time I was afraid of death because I was not sure what would happen after that. Then I had a stupid fear that suddenly everyone would stop loving me and a few more. Then recently I had this fear of losing her because the way we met was too good to be true. But then God made me remember the verse 1 John 4:18 which says "There is no fear in love. Perfect love casts out fear..." And I haven't feared ever since.

1 John 4:18 - "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."

13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?

I know pj was a very different person when we first met, but now she is this always happy, positive kinda person who has learnt to make God a part of her every aspect of life. And her journey with God started from my blog and that makes me happy. She is a bit too shy but she has a pure heart and God sees the heart. I'm sure God has wonderful things in store for her. You guys should ask her. It's a wonderful story.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?

Married and poor anytime.I can work hard and earn money to keep us going but can't work hard and earn love!

15. What's the first think you do when you get up?

Say the Lord's name and thank Him for everything that I have or don't have.

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick?

I don't think that is possible because love isn't that easy a thing that you can share with two. You will always always love one more than the other. And so I will choose the one I love more.

17. Would you give all in a relationship?

If I am in the right one which I am, yes and much more.

18. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he/she has done?

Again, I am not the kind of person who keeps grudges. I have gone through things that if someone else had gone through would probably have murdered the person. But as I said, my God expects of me to forgive and so I do. Also I don;t judge either as to why someone did what they did or what kind of a person that makes them.

Matthew 7:1 - "Stop judging so that you will not be judged."

19. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?

I am glad I am in a relationship. It makes me feel complete.

Genesis 2:19-24 - "The LORD God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him." But for Adam no suitable helper was found. So the LORD God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. The man said,"This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called 'woman, for she was taken out of man." For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh."

20. Tag 6 people.

I'm confused who to tag. So anyone who comments on this post is tagged.

have u ever

HAVE YOU EVER.......

Smoked a cigarette?:ya but thankfully I dint continue
Crashed a friend's car?: I can drive pretty well so that scenario never occurred but I am willing to give it a try. ..
Stolen a car?: Dozens of times!( In GTA of course)
Been in love?: Yes,..really i dont knw the differnce when its love/like/lust....
Been dumped?: no comments....
Shoplifted?: Ooooo... thank God I wasn't caught!.ya Bookshop and another time at archies..
Been in a fist fight?:schooll..nthing rough though..
Snuck(I guess she meant sneaked) out of your parent's house?: I wish!
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?: I still do.
Been arrested?:
Nopes. I never wish to be either.
Gone on a blind date?: I am not into blind dates, have enough worries on my mind already...
Skipped school?:once...lied with my sister to parents..
Been on a plane?: yep. i love to fly!
Seen someone die?: Sadly yes. My grandpa. I still cant believe tht he is gone...
Been to Canada?: nopes
Purposely set a part of yourself on fire?: I am weird but I ain't stupid!
Been jet-skiing?: I want to someday.
Met someone in person from the Internet?: sounds exciting.
Taken pain killers?: Don't need 'em!
Flown a kite?: Yes, but I am very bad at at it.
Built a sand castle?: nope, but I keep building castles in the air..
Gone puddle jumping?:ye... I love splashing...;)
Cheated while playing a game?: Every time!
Been lonely?: That's all I have mostly been.
Fallen asleep at work or school/college?: Never in school, it was way too fun to do that. But in college,most classes..my first mechanical lecture to the lectures in final year of Prof. Shantanu
Used a fake ID?:to get into college fests..
Felt an earthquake?:never..i smhow can never feel it..
Touched a snake?: Eww!! yes infact..once..
Slept beneath the stars?:yes...
Been robbed?: Yes, of my innocence.
Been misunderstood?: When have I not?
Won a contest?: Now I am a smart kid...:)
Run a red light/stop sign?: What's a red light and a stop sign?
Been suspended from school?: Does being suspended from college count?I havent been either...:))
Been in a car accident?: Car, Yes.
Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night?: I like ice cream but that's going way off the limit!
Walked the streets drunk?: I guess..many times...paris ..tht ws life .,,,,
Had déjà vu?: Many times. (Why do I feel I have posted this before?)
Danced in the moonlight?:why did all these gud things happen so long time back...
Witnessed a crime?: If using sms lingo in a blog is a crime, then yes. Don't ask who it was.
Been obsessed with post-it notes?: No.
Squished barefoot through the mud?: Yep
Been lost?: I am lost most of the time.
Been on the opposite side of the country?: Yes.
Swum in the ocean?: Nope.
Cried yourself to sleep?: Twice in the last 8 years...
Played cops and robbers?: yeah sorta..we called it commandoes...
Recently coloured with crayons?: Left that long ago.
Sung karaoke?: You don't wanna hear me sing, trust me.
Paid for a meal with only coins?:yes...in europe..wanted to finish off all tht loose change man..
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?: A few things. I regret them now.
Made prank phone calls?: Lots and lots!
Caught a snow flake on your tongue?: Never seen snow falling.
Written a letter to Santa Claus?: Nah.its a myth dear...
Blown bubbles?: lots when I was a kid.
Bonfire on the beach?: Nope. ..not on a beach bt bonfires many a times...
Cheated on a test?: Yeah, but I am pretty bad at it. I either get caught or it doesn't make any difference.
Gone skinny-dipping in a pool?: Naughty me.

tags

I generally avoid tags since i find them boring..but i came across a slew of interesting ones..So i will pen down another one..
Here i have to write 5 facts about myself...
1. I dont like to use the word gud friends or even like ppl to call me their gud friend ..leave apart best friends..I cannot reciprocate this feeling..Its just the way i am..its nt tht they arnt my gud/best friends..bt why use a word..it just puts a lot of expectations..Its nt even them expecting frm me..bt if i say they are my best/gud friends ..i will strt expecting too much frm them...
2.I am impulsive...I dont think many a times..its a gud trait and bad many a times..I remain impulsive when its going good ..but restrain myself when in despair or anger ..since actions at tht time cant be taken back..
3. I am a true gemini..I show whichever face i want to ..as i wish ..and when i wish...all to my wish...
smtimes i feel if all those who knw me come together they wudnt knw 1 common thing abt me...whatever reallly..
4. I have proposed a girl 'seriously' only twice..first one: she ws such an old school friend tht she dint take it seriously...and she laughed it out thinking I am flirting..after tht I used to talk to her in a serious tone for abt a month after which i gave up..she is still one of my best friends...2nd proposal i really cant talk abt..:)
5.Well I used to get scared watching those silly hindi scary movies which used to come on ATN at even noon hours...

Tig Tag toe

Got this from blog .I will tag my sole blog friend Sachi here...
Be brutally honest. I can take it, I think. However, if I suddenly disappear from Blogosphere or maybe even hang myself, you'll know whose fault it was. Reply to the following questions in the comment box and then take the tag(reminded to me by miss divinediu). :D

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3.Something I have and you want?
4.Give me a nick name and explain why you picked it.
5.Describe me in one word.
6.What was your first impression of me?
7.Do you still think that way about me now?
8.What reminds you of me?
9.If you could ever give me one thing, what would it be?
10.How well do you know me?
11.How do you see me in the future?
12. Something you wanted to tell me but couldn't.
13.Are you going to put this on your blog to see what I say about you?

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Phi - the golden mean

As the unofficial governing body that oversees celebrations of the golden mean (0.618) on Phi Day, Elliott Wave International have a bit of a conundrum on thier hands. You see, it's easy to think of June 18 (6-18) as the best day to celebrate the golden ratio, which is also known as the Greek letter 'phi' (pronounced 'fie'). But there's another day that actually marks the ratio even better.

That day is August 14, because it falls proportionally at 0.618 of the time from January 1 to December 31. (Here's the math: 0.618 of 365 days = 225. 57 days. There are 212 days in the first seven months of the year, which leaves 13.57 or, rounding up, 14 more days, which takes us to August 14.)

Now why alll this crap over here...well my bday falls on june 18th and i have had a luv affair with maths ever since i ws born...now i knw the reason :)

well august 14th ppl may also be in luv with maths ...:)

Saturday, July 25, 2009

good deed bad deed

Now i have read two really gr8 philosophical blogs in the past few dayz...thats like the best week in my whole life...The deep philosophy although sometimes boring but it really puts ur mind out ...I present the following copied from good deed bad deed

The two of us lay on the terrace on a clear night, both of us with a joint lit in our hand and stared at the sky. She suddenly broke the silence.“People become stars when they die…”I looked at her as her face reflected the orange glow of the lit joint. ‘Where did that come from?’ I thought. I figured being high on weed makes you philosophical so I put in my own two cents.“They go to Heaven. The bad ones go to Hell.”A trail of smoke emerged from my lips as I spoke and danced in the air, reaching for the stars.“Who’s a good person and who’s a bad person?” she asked, her voice husky due to the weed, never taking her eyes off the stars.I looked at her again. ‘Nope. She isn't kidding around.’ I thought. She was expecting an answer.“Good people are good people and bad people are bad people…” That was all I could think of saying. “…you know what I mean?”“I don’t.” she replied and took a deep breath. She really was high.“Umm…good people are the ones who have done good deeds and bad people are the ones who have done bad deeds.” I explained and took a last long drag hoping the explanation was good enough.“What is a good deed and what is a bad deed?”“Can you stop the crap now? You are ruining the trip.” I said wiping off the sweat on my forehead and started rolling another joint.She completely ignored my request. “Is smoking weed or having sex or fighting a sin?”“Yeah, I guess so.”“So we are going to Hell?”I kept quiet. She looked at me. I looked back. Then she went back to staring at the stars. My silence must have told her I didn’t have an answer. She was quiet for a while. Just when I thought the conversation was finally over, she spoke again.“If I kill a man and I think I’m not wrong, then I’m right. I haven’t done a bad deed.” She paused to look if I was listening, then to her finished joint which she replaced with a new one and took a deep drag.“…and if I haven’t done a bad deed then it has to be a good deed. I think smoking weed isnt a bad deed either…”She paused for a few seconds and looked at me smoking. It seemed as if she wanted me to somehow acknowledge what she said. I was thinking about it anyway.She continued. “…so that means there is no such thing as a bad deed. Then there is no one who goes to Hell. If everything is a good deed then everyone goes to Heaven. That means we are living in Hell.”The fact struck me hard as if someone had punched me in the stomach. It was the deepest thing I had ever heard. ‘I am in Hell smoking weed and going to Heaven for that.’ I thought.“Okay. So you kill a man and you think it is right. So it is a good deed and you go to Heaven. This place is Hell, and everyone goes to Heaven. Agreed? But what happens if you feel guilty?”The question made sense, I could make out by her expression. She twitched her eyes a little, then frowned. The question bothered her but only for a few seconds and then she looked up at the sky again, smiling.“I think feeling guilty is a good deed.”

Friday, July 24, 2009

Hihghhghg

I have been freaking restive for the past one month..gud music is playing in my mind most of my time..and am high on high creating hormone serotonin(and its nothing to do with hard drinks..)...my fingers are unable to rest..there's a constant verve to them..

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Perfect things never come to an end!

This post is a direct copy

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox


People are not wrong! It's the striking of chords amongst two souls that makes things hard. No matter how bad you may find someone, there would always be someone to love that one and no matter how good you are, a certain set, a certain amount of souls hate you.. for something may or may not been done by you! So true, “People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.”. I've learned in my lifetime so far that you can't help who you fall for and no matter how hard you try and how much it hurts you every day that you just want to be with them or just talk to them you never stop trying to make them happy by the little things you say or do because that’s what makes your life worth going on for.
You meet people, believe in them..talk to them, know them..and term them as friends. With days passing by, friends become good and better. Feelings grow along with humans. You discover love; you realize the importance of relationship. You become better friends and try naming it. Not always lovers, may be best friends...may be siblings...
Those who are rich in their friendship seem to be those who believe in lifelong relationship, who stay with their companions through thick and thin ,who weather the dry spells.
People find it hard to understand but with passing time you stop explaining. You know it's beautiful and precious. You put in your faith and trust. You start believing in its existence and work upon making it never ending. At times, you may fall for a relation that is weak enough that time or distance may separate it. You lose! But don't lose your heart. This was never a complete relationship. If it was, you shall cross paths.
"If you want something, you get it. If you don't get it, you really didn't want it at all."
That’s why I say, perfect things never come to an end.

P.S. To Shatab,
Being friends with you was the second best thing in this world. Finding you was the first!

P. P.S. Thank you for letting me write the 100th post :-)

Taj by chance

now lemme begin by asking u guyz..hav u been to Agra and hav u seen Taj Mahal?..
well I happened to be free one thursday nite after wrk and friday was a holiday for me..so me and my friends decided to chek out New York...I wsnt up for it ..bt girls luv this and so u hav to watch the movie with them...so coming to the point ..it ws a pretty late nite show..and were getting only front row tickets..so we decided to ditch the movie..and head for gurgaon..on the way..one of us came with a idea tht lets go to agra..we were all game..so we packed sm snacks and took along a fifth friend and started driving to agra at 2:00 am in the morning..we smhow managed to reach agra at 6:00...i ws bloody sleepy after halfway and pretty much slept in the bacck seat after ttht..

well well we asked sm dhaba guy for directions to Taj after reaching Agra and he tried to convince us tht Taj doesnt open up so early so we shud jst sit there..(wanted to increase his business)
then we strted to drive away and he told us tht since its friday ...so Taj would be closed ...we were like tht he is jst messing with us ...so we headed for taj and found out the truth :(
anyways we still got a posterior view of Taj ..not so beautiful bt nonetheless..it ws a good long drive...we headed back home then at 10:00 am and reached delhi by 2:00 pm
it ws a jollly gud long drive..

p.s.: I could actually bet tht atleast half of ppl who have been to Agra dont knw tht Taj is closed on Friday

Monday, July 20, 2009

types of guyz..



I have been away for sm time now..so hav not been able to write anything for past sm time...have been partying late till the wee hours and travelling...last nite ws the only one where I cud pack in sm sleep...:)
in btw ..those who listen to Wandy on 102.6 the 2:00am show ..she is back frm the dead(bombay i guess) after a long time..i heard her last week...cheerful as ever...
yesterday a long time friend had come back frm canada ...and in came a discussion abt the 3 types of guyz ...it seemed pretty funny to the ppl in canada he told..and even to ppl frm the rest of india...mayb the terminology is common to Delhi or jst IITDelhi even..or mayb even IITDelhi Nilgiri hostel ..
Chichora.ladkibaaz/laundiyabaaz and randhwha
Chichora ::are the ones (I consider myself one) those who dont care wat they say to girls.they have girls as their friends bt are free willy...speak their mind bt are never indecent too...jst like birdwatching most of the time..
Ladkibaaz/laundiyabaaz:: as the name suggests ..these are the guyz who have girlfriends and are mostly seen roaming with girls..they are either gay or hav actually girlfriends...
Randhwha:: these are guyz who dont hav girls and cant really do anything abt it...

listening to Common A dream

Sunday, July 12, 2009

college ke din...

This one came as a forward to me......

yeh humara college yaaro
Yeh degree bhi lelo ye naukari bhi lelo,
Bhale Chheen lo mujhse USA ka Visa...........
magar mujhko lauta do college ka canteen,
vo chaay ka paani vo teeKha samosaa..........
kadi dhoop mein apne ghar se nikalnaa,
vo project ki Khatir shahar bhar bhataknaa,
vo lecture mein doston ki proxy lagaanaa,
vo sir ko chidhanaa ,vo aeroplane udaanaa,
vo submission ki raton ko jagnaa jagaanaa,
vo orals ki kahani vo practical ka Kissaa.....
bimaari ka reason de ke time badhanaa,
vo doosron ke assignments ko apnaa banaanaa,
vo seminar ke din paironka chhatpatanaa,
vo workshop mein din raat pasinaa bahanaa,
vo exam ke din ka bechain maahaul,
par vo maa ka vishvas - Teachar ka Bharosaa.....
vo pedon ke neeche gappe ladanaa,
vo raaton mein drawing sheets banaanaa,
vo exams ke akhari din theatre mein jaanaa,
vo bhole se freshers ko hamesha sataanaa,
without any reason common off pe jaanaa,
test ke waqt table mein kitabon ko rakhnaa,
isi tarah teachers ko dena Jhansaa........
college ki sabse purani nishaanee,
vo chaiwala jiseke yahan tha ghanto bethna
vo uske hathon ki Adarak (ginger) ki chaay meethee,
vo chupkese journal mein bheji hui chitthi,
vo padh tehi chiththi uska bhadakna,
vo chehre ki laali vo aankhon ka Gussaa.....
college ki wo saari lambisi raatein,
vo doston se canteen mein pyaari si baatein,
vo gathering ke din ka ladnaa Jhagadnaa,
vo ladkiyon ka yuhin hamesha akadnaa,
bhulaaye nahin bhool sakta hai koi,
vo college, vo batein, vo shararatein...
kaash hum phir dohra sakte kahani......
vo kagaz ki kashti vo barish ka pani

listening to Kanye West - Can't Tell Me Nothin' Offical


Thursday, June 18, 2009

conflict of interests

Now many u may be thinking of Conflict of interest as per the company policy or the code of ethics that we generally encounter..I encountered the term widely during the preparation of the CFA paper..now this isnt about that kind of conflict..I am here to talk to you about the more basic and fundamental conflict...the conflict of interest that we have when we study..our heart is for no study and brain says to study...i encounter this all the time...
I am having a fking headache rite now...i'll jst pass the blog now...listen to ..Calvin Harris I am not alone right now..

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

u2 is back

u2 is back in my playlist after lying low for abt a year..will update this blog smtime next week..am off to take CFA test..bas pass ho jau:)

Sunday, May 24, 2009

My Secret Diary

Now i was looking for a rough copy last nite..wen i stumbled upon my first writings..Its actually my diary from the first year of IITDelhi..Well i first thought there ws no point reading it since I myself had written it but then I thought to myself why not..
One of of the interesting pieces was where i had written that my grades in IIT semester exams were inversely proportional to my efforts..Well it alwayz remained so even after that...and it very well mayb..
then there were tell-all tales of my umpteen visits with a couple of my friends in first year to Miranda House to meet our respective friends :P..and the time we were thrown out of the CCD at K-nags market since we had MacDonald's scoops with us...and the time i dint go to meet this friend when she was going one last time to save myself of all the heartbreak or anything...well i used to think that's the best option ..run,hide,dont talk,dont call,think of bad things about the person to get over stuff...
i never thought i wud remember all this except for this diary..
then there were tales about the raggin times ..how like vich senior i thought ws cool and which ones were gory (there were a couple whom I jst cudnt help getting afraid of..)
whhile reading it i also remembred the time when my roommates found out this diary and were reading it aloud to each other in my absence in first year..it was round about then that i buried it in one of my bags never to be read again...
well I read it and i dont think I have changed one bit in many senses...i am still the same one..uncluttered...frank...clear mind...and procastrinating stuff...I had written so many stuff i shud do while i ws in iit ..i had planned to do them in the first year itself(foreign language,guitar,dance, and what not)..bt it took me about 5 years to do most of them..and i am still a big time amateur if i can call that ....that's for my learning curve..

Friday, May 22, 2009

Infectious Greed..


Now the heading is copied from some blog..

forgeting that...lets concentrate on my life these dayz..hav been off drinking since last year's pool side party..(well it ws my first pool party...and none after that..) That is abouth 14 bloody months...Well now things are jst waiting for me to get sloshed once again..am missing paris..jst met a guy in office who was also in paris as an intern..started discussin all the stuff that used to happen there..and all the gals..and all the discos and drinks...

smbody please jst give me a job of bartender or McDonald guy in Paris..i wudnt complain....

.Welll how I got this heading..its all goin in my head...Watchin oil jump up and down...i jst feel..I jst wnt one good day..like George soros had in 1991 or like the black swan guy(Nassim Nicholas Taleb) had or like many traders have had jst one day of their lives..I jst want one gud day ..and I will quit ..and play safe...jst want to be a rogue trader till then..I havnt slept well in many dayz now..a lot is goin in my head..have been thinking a lot..and I jst need to clear it out...there is no job like trading ..bt then there is no place like Paris..and U knw wat the best thing wud be to have the love of my life in Paris with me with a Job of a trader...Now I am getting greedy...so I dont even knw wat kinda cr&^ I am dishing out..bt rite now i am listening to ...blah blahh..ballllahhh...disco lies moby

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Nagraj,SuperCommandoDhruv and......


Well now the construction is over....lets get to the point..well ppl read comics even at the age of 28 ..I caught our IT guy reading these Super commando dhruv and nagraj special ..welll i jst remebred my dayz as a small boy..i loved them..initially i started out with chahca chaudhary and billu ...bt then i graduated to Raj comics ....initially i bought most of my comics..bt then my pocket started getting smaller...so had to get them on rent...then sub-lease it to my friends for a day..and tried to maximize the no of comics exchanged per comic i bought /rentd..

Monday, May 18, 2009

bending over backwards....

A Guy WAS chatting with a female (never met her directly) - Online chat.

(Background, both are s/w engineers by the way and both work for real big MNC's )

Hero: Hey...GM (Good Morning)... How's u doing today?

Female: VGM...Day is going good and it got better having found u on chat

Hero: wow...am honored, u know what, my day starts only when I find you on Chat

Female: Yep...me too feel the same..... (be right back)'ll get some Coffee.

Hero: OK(Hero waits impatiently. Meanwhile, his manager comes to his seat.)

Manager: Hey, I need some help from you

Hero: [**** This guy always comes at wrong time] Yeah tell me

Manager: Could u write a program for me which generates nth prime number, given value of n. Would you give this by today evening?

Hero: I would do that, but I think it's quite hard, is it ok with you, if I Give it by tomorrow evening.

Manager: Yeah, that would be fine. Thank you [Leaves the place]

(Our hero sighs and stares at his monitor waiting impatiently for Female to Arrive. All of a sudden smiles on his face. Over to chat window...)

Female: Hey, am back

Hero: cool, you know what my manager does, She's kinda..... keeps asking stupid Things, tries to give me stupid work

Female: Yeah, it's the same everywhere. Real sick ppl these managers are!!

Hero: Yep, u rite!!

Female: Hey, can u do me a favor

Hero: *smiles* sure, why not.

Female: Hey, I want you to write me a program to print nth prime Number; given N. Would you give that to me by tomorrow evening? Plzzz. You know it's real Urgent for me to work this out

Hero: hey, that's a one-hour's work. Sure check Urmail in an hour from now. ok?



Female: THIS IS WHAT I ASKED U WHEN I CAME TO YOUR WORK PLACE. NOW YOU KNOW WHO I AM!! AND ONE MORE POINT.... YOUR 1 HOUR TIME STARTS NOW!!





I am listening to ..Moby Disco Lies rite now..must listen..

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Veg vs Non-veg

Well this one is not about veg and non-vegetarian talks..
This is about the perennial problem the vegetarians have while going out with the non-vegetarians..and the bills are shared and equally split..lets face it...non-vegs alwayz eat more..their food is more expensive....so they alwayz get more value out of their money..

Well ..so I had to give a treat to my non-veg friend Sachi ..and she also has to give me..for all the job which we got...so we decided that let it be in a differnt way ..we both go out and have our kinds of food..and I 'll pay for her and she'll pay for me..she gains anytime u see..she has appetite..;)

Well ..I am listening to jon bon jovi' Blaze of Glory , I'll Be There For You , You Give Love a Bad Name , Keep The Faith , Living On A Prayer , wanted dead or alive and bed of roses these dayz...

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Hole in my soul

I have been listening to Hole in my soul by Aerosmith now whole day long...sorry have been away for sometime..net wasnt working at home.bt am back now for good...
Well this one is related to the Axe effect thingie..I still am getting messages from the service..
SMS1: Axe Man..Its me Tanya...I jst heard gurls r going crazy for guyz wearing nu Axe Summer..hve u tried it! pls dnt baby..I dnt want other girls 2 give u their nos..
SMS 2: Tell me how u r doing..

Well i dnt know h0oow to reply to all this stuff...neither how to stop this service..pls if any of you gets to knw pls lemme knw..

Sunday, April 26, 2009

short one

This is the shortest post by far...

Tell me a three letter word for disappointment

YOU

daah...jst copied it frm the 70's show..

am listening to "Eddie Vedder'No Ceiling - Into the Wild" and "Sean Paul Give it up to me"

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Bored.....the story continued...

Smtime back I had written a blog on how I had got bored of things..I had even gone to the extend on actually putting my orkut and Gtalk status as bored..it was a first frm anyone...comeon who accepts on public forums that they are bored except hollywood celebrities :) ..it seems now I have a fan following too..not the kinds those celebrities have ..neither that explicit...but I have a lot of people on my gtalk ,orkut and facebook who accept it for watever reasons it may be...that they are bored...it just reminds me of the chat in Before Sunrise "I mean, just once, I'd love to see, some little old lady save up all her money, to go to the fortune teller, and she'd get there, all excited about hearing her future, and the woman would say, "Um-humm. Tomorrow, and all your remaining days will be exactly like today. A tedious collection of hours. And you will have no new passions, and no new thoughts and no new travels, and when you die, you'll be completely forgotten. "
Ohh..I simply love this movie and its sequel Before Sunset...The conversations and the European setting ...anywayz..i will take off now..just put ur orkut/facebook/Gtalk status to bored and U 'll get a free talk time with me..:)

These days I am listening to heart of glass by blondie

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Feeling Miserable

Ok..its like a cycle for me..I jst really smtimes get the urge to fall in love and it happens once in a while..then i feel really miserable..last time this feeling came was around republic day and it lasted for 36 hours..now it struck me last nite and i got over it just this early morning..
I almost alwayz feel miserable wen I think about how ppl fall in love and i dont smhow..bt I dont know if i can be hopeful on this..mayb someday i will get the girl,my type..hopefully this cycle wont come again or wen its time really comes I am already in love ....Lets be hopeful this time.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Dont explain yourself,because talk is cheap

Dont explain yourself,because talk is cheap..There are more important things than to hear you speak----Lyrics of the song Sorry by Madonna..
I have been hearing Madonna's Sorry and Hung Up and Moby's Natural Blues all day long now...
Now I trade Oil and it moves ..it bloody hell moves like anything..if you want to see the kind of movements ..jst look at its charts..this is the 10mint charts..if jst try tweaking with it and see the 10 mints charts with high density...for every dollar move I lose or gain (losing it mainly these dayz) a thousand dollars ...like if I had bought oil at 48.00 and then sold it for 49.00 then I gain 1000 dollars..Oil is one of the leading markets..it doesnt necessarily follow other markets..but a lot of other markets follow oil like Wheat,Soya and a lot of commodities..A lot of stocks of Dow Jones like Exxon and other oil companies had their share price pummelled as oil fell from 147 to mid 30's.
So, I dont know where oil is headed from here in the short term..bt long term obviously its going really really up..god know what figures we are looking at.....short term its still undecisive.it could still test the lows of about 40 or mayb be remain range bound...
I will continue this post later...
As for why i chose the Title..its jst that smtimes the market is moving so much in front of our eyes and we may be thinking that it cud go down...bt even then we dont enter...and then later we explain ourselves..bt the point is talk is cheap..u hav to enter the market to know it and lose from it or gain een...watever really..

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

The Fool...

There is the plain fool, who does the wrong thing at all times everywhere, but there is the Wall Street fool, who thinks he must trade all the time. No man can always have adequate reasons for buying or selling stocks daily – or sufficient knowledge to make his play an intelligent play.
----ANONYMOUS, i think

Sunday, April 5, 2009

First Impressions



Now..People say that first impressions matter..to me I think they matter the most...
For me first impression matter big time..its the period between I first meet you/talk to you and by the time I regularly chat with you..can be a period of a few dayz or months or hours..U shud nt be cheap or too funny ..
For me its also like if ur first impression is gud then u will stay gud in my eyes for a big time..u do anything bad, say anything bad ..it really wont make a difference..
But if your first impression is bad..then I wud not really trust you or watever gud u mite do ..it will take a hell lot of time for me to thing any gud of you...
So in a way if you want to knw if I want to talk to you or like you..jst ask me wat my first impression of you is...

I dint knw vich pic to put so have put both of them..
Am listening to The ting tings-We walk..sorta pop song..

100s

100 Truths About Meh :-)

LAST TIMES…
1. Last drink: Cheeku Shake
2. Last phone call: :-)
3. Last text message: :-)
4. Last song you listened to: Ace of Base album
5. Last time you cried: many years back

HAVE YOU EVER...
6. Dated someone twice: I dont keep a count..
7. Been cheated on? ???
8. Kissed someone & regretted it????
9. Lost someone special? Yaa...a big yes
10. Been depressed? Yes
11. Been drunk and threw up? Never!

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Blue
13. Black
14. Maroon
15. Green

FIRSTS :
15. Made new friends: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: Yes..Kinda!
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes!
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes!!!!
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you:Yesss

HAVE YOU:
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: depends on the definition :)
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 9 on 10 ;)
23. How many kids do you want to have: I would have a couple and spoil them ;) and let my wife teach them the good stuff :))
24. Do you have any pets: No :/
25. Do you want to change your name: Noooooooooooo! I love it!!!
26. What did you do for your last birthday: I answered phone calls..played poker
27. What time did you wake up today: 8 am half..then finally at 10 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Thinking of something...someone mayb
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Go out of Delhi
30. Last time you saw your father: Morning
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I could turn back the time and stop thinking so much.

Whats your:
33. Name: Shivam Goel
34. Nicknames: Mammu(@IITDelhi ),HBK(@IITDelhi ),Shibbo(@school chandigarh),Max(@Job),VMC(@School delhi),Star Movies(@school Chandigarh) ,Harry Potter(@Job & @niteclub,Paris),Bluetooth + Jobless(@French Embassy Delhi) and list goes on
35. Zodiac sign: Gemini \m/ We Rock!!!
36. Male or female or transgenders: My passport says it all. Masculine completely!
37. Elementary: LFCS
38. School: LFCS,VPS
39. Colleges: IITDelhi
40. Hair color: Black.
41. Long or short: What? short ofcourse
42. Height: 5 ft 10"
43. Do you have a crush on someone? yeppp
44. Ever been in love? Mayb..depends
45. Piercings? Yes...wen i ws a kid..
46. Tattoos? no
47. Righty or lefty: Righty
48. First surgery: Never I think
49. First piercing: 7-8 and it mite be the last also
50. First best friend: Aman,Satyam
51. First sport you loved: Football
52. First pet : None
53. First vacation: My Grandma :)
54. First concert: Shaan
55. First crush: Shivani

RIGHT NOW:
56. Eating: Nothing! Don't talk of food.
57. Drinking: Nothing.
58. I'm about to: go crazy.
59. Listening to: Stone Temple Pilots
60. Waiting for: lunch

YOUR FUTURE
61. Want kids? Yes
62. Want to get married? Yess..not that soon mayb..in 3 years mayb
63. Careers in mind? Yesss

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
64. Lips or eyes: Eyes
65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
66. Shorter or taller: Taller//any mayb
67. Older or Younger: Older..more mature I think ..not too old also @lollzz
68. Romantic or spontaneous: Both...bt more inclined towards spontaneity
69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms
70. Sensitive or loud: Classy and cool
71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
72. Trouble maker or hesitant: None!

HAVE YOU EVER :
73. Kissed a stranger: ya...the french way of meeting ppl is all abt kissing first..
74. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes
76. Broken someone's heart: No for sure!
77. Had your own heart broken: ..sigh ...sigh...
78. Been arrested: These days am planning a trip to jail. Never bt have been to police stations for lost stuff..
79. Turned someone down: Yes
80. Cried when someone died: No
81. Liked a friend that is a guy? Yea as a straight person. :-)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
81. Yourself: More than anyone anything...
82. Miracles: not really
83. God: Not much..more spiritual kinds..
84. Love at first sight: no..
85. Heaven: mayb
86. Santa Claus: no..
87. Kiss on the first date? comeon...u dont wanna knw wat i did..
89. Devils: I see one every morning..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes!
91. Had more than one at one time? No :(..
92. Wanted to kill someone ever? Unmm yea bt that was i ws really irritated then...I still wish the same!
93. Among your blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? Now that's interesting ;)
94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? Yes! Many times.
95. Wanted to steal you friend's girlfriend? Naahh they have a extremely bad choice ;)..

Associate with something you wear:
96. White: Peace
97. Black: Shoes
98. Red: Tie
99. Pink:None
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? You bet!

Sunday, March 22, 2009

call (a) girl

Now many of you mst have seen the axe-effect ad where in a girl writes her phone no. on the car window after smoking it with her breath...well I had watched the ad a couple of times..and a few days back i took the plunge..I called that no(+919987333333).....and I suspected that it mite be either sm call girl service or mayb there wud be a prize in store for me for actually callin that no.(well who really does.)But it turned out to be jjst an axe-effect service...well lets see how the conversation went...(lets calll the recorded girl's voice as CG for call girl)
CG-Welcome to Axe-effect To continue press 1 to end press 2
Me-1.
CG-Hey..Neha here...so would you like to take me out on your car..To say yes press 1 to say no press 2
Me-1
CG-(in a slightly sleazy voice)--well you know how to impress girls..so I have a friend who would like to see you...if you want To say yes press 1 to say no press 2
Me-1
CG-Well I have got sm guy on my hand ;)..So Natasha would like to wake you up in the morning and talk to you then..wat say..if you want To say yes press 1 to say no press 2
Me-1
CG-for 7:30 am press 730
Me-850
CG-So Natasha would wake you at 8:50 for the next five days..

Well I did not get the call next morning...bt i got it the next day..I missed it..bt they messaged me that I jst dint pick up the phone..:) (I was sleeping)


I am listening to Poker Face by Lady Gaga..I jst love lady gaga..her previous song Just Dance is a must listen..

Thursday, March 19, 2009

mutual crush


I dont really need to describe "Mutual Crush"..its self-explanatory....its jst another thing i came across like the "Backup" thing..in which u keep a backup with a good friend in case nothing turns out,infact no-one turns up in your life...:)
Another one: part-time lover and full time friend..

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Casting Couch

"Whether you’re hiding from the KGB, working as 007, or pretending you’re a married man to please your mother, every now and again you’ll find it necessary to create an alternate life. And while you can get alarmingly far with just a bogus ,doctored passport, and a set of Armani glasses, eventually you’ll need to produce a human being to corroborate your story. That’s when you’ll need an actor.


“But actors are whiny and self-centered.” True, but they’re also professional liars and –- as an added bonus –- very, very hot :).


“How do I go about hiring these masters of deceit?” You’ll need to generate a character description and post it with a casting service or local newspaper. Before you complain about all that work, remember: You’ll be rewarded with hundreds of pictures of hot strangers(read girls only) sent right to your home...free.


Below are some notices I sent out recently when trying to cast a fake family so that my mother would love me. Enjoy!


CASTING CALL!


Role:Mrs. Goel. My Fortuitous wife ... Despite birthing a son has not lost her figure. In fact, might look better than she used to.


Project: “The Goels” on the lines of The Simpsons(I have never really watched it beyond 2 minutes..bt wud want to sm day) A living theater experiment in which we fool my mother into thinking I have a wife and son. Intermittent gigs over the next twenty years.


Director:Ofcourse me – the visionary web-cam auteur who brought you raw classics


Pay: Scale.


Seeking: Female, 18 – 29, energetic, extremely attractive. Like, at least a 9.


Skills:


  1. -- Hot -- like, at least a 9
  2. -- Must provide own swim suits(ok ok ..i can do that myself)...whatever “sexy outfits” a married women might have
  3. -- Willingness to perform own stunts
  4. -- Willing to do anything for the scene

Notes:

  1. -- Other minute details are negotiable in the contract..
  2. -- Great first-time role: U cud be on ur way to bollywood..u knw how niche' roles get u those damn awards

Please send headshots, resumes, and other pictures to shivamgoel@gmail.com

Epilogue:am listening to pretty much those old songs only...

Sunday, March 1, 2009

valkyrie

i saw this movie valkyrie..every1 knows wats it abt..bt for me a die hard hitler fan..it was a manna frm heaven...
though the movie revolved arnd a coup to upstage hitler..even then I think i liked it..
first of all before this movie I used to think that coup's are a waste of a time.(after watching so many of them amngst our neighbouring countries...)bt i got to see that it can be meaningful too..and there is no right and no wrong..its jst a victor who frames the history according to his view..
Infact i wudnt be wrong to say that i have developed a fascination for coup..the power play, the strategy and the tactics..and the utter fear of everything going just bloody wrong big time..you sure will be castrated for that...:).
the bottomline though is that there is no wron and no right..u hav to take side during the war and during peace time...this can be good or bad...it can be helpful and can go wrong in a big way..
.the question is is remaining neutral a better solution ...or is taking a risk of taking sm1's side better....
I dont knw reallly..
am listening to Human by Killer these days...


P.S.: as my friend Deepak Misra suggested to me ..its better to propose to her and take that risk than just being remaining a neutral friend forever..pretty true..

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I am officially bored


Now I officially declare that I am bored....I have a job which I dont know why i am in and how it works..i havent had a gf since I dont knw when...the only solace comes from the fact that there are more boring ppl who have bothered to read uptill this point...
I just started to think what good were things exactly a year ago..I had definitely more parties..and meeting new ppl....I was jobless(i.e. was still in college..)..
So what do I look forward in the next few months..Bangkok/Hongkong trip in June...ya ya it shud be gud..
Meeting sm interesting new ppl...(I dont knw how bt i think smthing is abt to give..and it ain't me)
and hopefully to keep u glued to this ultra-boring blog...

Now another question ...Do ppl look at themselves the same way that they look at their friends/other ppl...in the sense do we see the mistakes...no i dont think ..
really the problem here is that I have been watching too much of the girlie "sex & the city " and "gossip girl"..the latter I had quit watching after watching the first two episodes during my college times (found it very teenage types..and also dint have time)..u can now sense how my life has changed that I am watching them..:(
let me give u another example of "level of not having anything to do"..I have this friend wrking in hongkong..no real friends..just acquaintances ...a telugu roommate...this person has now started watching telugu movies..and even recommends it to me that they are really cool...hollywood ishtyle..
Actually I think I mite strt to soon enuf..bt nt telugu..mayb sm native african/zulu kinds or mayb Bengali kinds...
watever really...

Monday, February 16, 2009

sm1 dreams of....

Well this is the year of the ox..and I am an ox by the chinese calender..it has been my status for past smtime now on my gtalk...so u can check that out
i just remember what dream i had last night
aaj kal bahut tension mein hoon..
when it's like that, i remember all my dreams
previous night ka bhi yaad aa gaya hai
I'm kind of younger, and living at my old (ground floor apartment) house in Chandigarh
and there are suddenly like 5 tigers approaching
to attack me
i run for the kitchen and then fight them by knives
by dodging them through the small doors (small house)
nd when they are killed, 4-5 more come..
and fro some reason, at the back of my head, there is a constant thought that this is some kind of curse and they will keep coming
I dont knw wat to do and i dont knw where to hide...

I need sm helppppp

I'm Just Not That Into This Movie

He's Just Not That Into You is a nice little movie I saw this saturday..It keeps telling us how women/girls are stupid to think so much..and for a welcome change show guys as the studs:)

But in the end as always its the girl's will which wins..Its always that the girl and guy try and understand and solve the girl's problem...and keep her happy.Remember both have to work together
In bw the cast boasts of sm of the better looking chicks these dayz...Jennifer aniston(old ..really looks old),jennifer connelly(sexy as ever),Scarlett (Super Super hot) and Drew barrymore(shown more of a geek and not much of a role in it..)
Anywayz enjoy this one time watch flick..ciao..

Thursday, February 12, 2009

V-day revisited



Its another Valentine Day,
All you guys have a date,
All I have is my chocolate cake,
that too my mother baked


p.s.:it doesnt necessarily mean that I dont have a date..:)

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Height of Technology and dumbness


Now this is dedicated to all the Computer science students ...3
We have to read a lot of reports in our trading job..and also We subscribe to a lot of trial subscriptions...Those guyz (or infact their IT personnel) say that they maintain a database..But know what these automated programs will send you a mail that you won't receive further reports..But if you subscribe to the same service from the same damn email address we should technically speaking not be getting the reports...But now I have tried this on 3 differents sites(pretty famous ones in their line of business) and ..guess what..they send you the reports...so enjoy yourself and just keep registering from the same email address..dont bother to create a new email address...

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Where are we...

I have been thinking for the last few weeks...a few of my gud frens tying the knot and it reminds of my case...hopelessly hopeless...though the followng is little out of context...
jst analysing that I thought why some people keep phone with them at bed...and in silent mode..so is it an urge to have it by themselves all the time or what..even though they may hardly pick calls at nite..well I am still looking for answers..and if the phone isnt in silent mode..then what happens to them if sm1 actually calls/messages...
Another thing was ..do single people who are partying/or are with frens saturday nite...reply to messages...I dont think they do...if they are to someone that means they may be in "like with the person they are messaging"
Do frens and i mean a girl and a boy mainly...remain connected well after marriage or if one of them has found someone..things change..bt why shud they..its the love/new person who shud accomodate the old guys..
am still looking fr answers...

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

..let it rock...


Like Moses, the Dalai Lama, and Dr. Oracle, I am often asked to impart my wisdom and advice on those who cannot or will not help themselves. Even though I can't improve myself -- I am seemingly perfect ;) -- I can help others improve.


Dear Shivam,


My girlfriend has been nagging me to express my feelings more but she always does that at inconvenient times like when I'm watching football or reading about up-coming video games. I'd love to tell her something so she'll stop nagging me, but I have no idea how to go about "sharing" my emotions.


Sincereley,


RaviPrakash Lodhi


----------------------


Ravi,


There are only three appropriate venues for expressing one's emotions. I call them the 3 D's: Dinner, During Sex, Deathbed.


DINNER: Your girlfriend wants you to express your feelings? Fine. Cover her hand with your own, look deep into her eyes, and tell her in a soft voice how you regret not ordering an appetizer. This action is international girl-speak for "I am revealing the secret depths of my soul," so it doesn't have to be about appetizers -- any honest feeling you have about the quality of food or service will have her eating out of your hand.


DURING SEX: One of the seemingly infinite benefits of sex is that there's so much activity, coordination and noise, you can get away with saying almost anything*. Thus, sex is the ideal time to honestly express doubts about your employability, gambling addiction, or even your long-term relationship potential.


DEATHBED: Since it's really tough to be mad at someone who is about to die, your deathbed is an excellent time to really go bananas with your feelings. Insecurities, infidelities, incisions...anything you've kept hidden over the years can be freely discussed with little fear of retribution. As an added bonus, some girls enjoy a sensitive side and become easily confused when faced with the grim certitude of death...play your cards right and you might be able to squeeze two in that deathbed before the buzzer goes off. (NOTE: For all the above reasons, feigning your own terminal illness and deathbed scenario can be a cathartic experience).


*Note: avoid at all costs mentioning how hot her sister is.

**Unless said sister is in bed with you. In that case, feel free to exaggerate a bit.


P.S.: I am sorry for copying some of my work..

I am listening to let it rock these dayz though

Monday, January 19, 2009

what's there in a name

Now i was returning by train a few years back from Bangalore and i was coming back alone actually..
So there was this old couple of yore ..you know the forty fifty years married kinds..
They looked more like those english educated kinds of couple..So the guy keeps calling her sweet nothings like rose ,sweetie pie,sweetheart...and all those sweet names all the time..I was really amazed to see such love after having being married for so much time..
so the lady( or grandma shud i say...) just went out..and I confessed to this granpd kinds of person that their love looked eternal and has really stood the wrath of time..grandpa then quipped back that he had forgotten her name around ten years back and so called her out like this lest she feels bad...

So moral of the story is what's there in a name...your feelings are important...
to copy from one hindi movie....even shakespeare wrote his name below this saying of his...;)

Thursday, January 8, 2009

....the making of a heartattack..

in the last few dayz ..i.e. this week i realized how people can so easily get a heartattack/heartfail when they make a big loss and want to escape all the ignominy..
Lemme strt from the begining ...I am a crude oil trader..and man ..crude oil is volatile..the way it moves ..i jst luv it..
uptil last month when my P/L (profit/loss) statment used to move ..i used to enjoy it ..but coming bcak this year ..this is also giving me heart burns...last two dayz I almost had a feeling that I am going to get a heart attack...my hands dint sweat(u cud attribute that to the Ultra cold conditions.)
I just wish more such volatile dayz for me to finally attain vairagya urf nirvana..i hope i have sm gud deeds under my belt..

p.s.:I have even started listening to "what if god was in one of us" by joan osbourne..
and now i am seriously wondering why my first blog of the year is about heartattacks..